Marking Progress and Nerves

When you are losing weight or even just toning your body or trying to change anything about yourself, it can be hard to see the progress in yourself. You see yourself everyday and the chanegs are small, so at times you just don't see it. When you look at pictures side by side it is a good way to see the changes in yourself, but for me one of the best ways has been to put on old clothes. Some clothes that I have fit better now, and look great, others though are way too big. Sometimes it is fun to put on clothes and see they are too big. Other times it is a pain though. Right now it is kind of a pain. In San Diego I can just wear jeans a tank top most days and be okay. But we are going to Indiana in just a couple days and I think I am going to need a little something more. Shopping may be in order. Darn.

Anyways, back to my original thoughts. One way that I have found is a good way to see the changes in your whole body is to try on a dress. I have chosen to use my wedding dress to see progress. I only put it on every so often, just when I want to see some change and remind myself that this is working. So this morning I put on my wedding dress and I was shocked to se that to pull it tight I had about 2-3 inches of fabric in my hand. That is some change. I wish I had taken measurements at the beginning of this process, but I didn't, so dresses are the best way for me to see the progress outside of numbers on a scale.

I am hoping that other people can see the progress that maybe I don't see immediately. Steven says he can but let's be honest, he's my husband, he has to say that, and I love him for it. This is making me a little nervous for my trip to Indiana. I can't help but wonder, maybe it is just the pictures, like I am getting a good angle or something. I have now lost 58lbs, but I am still a big girl. It's not like I have lost 58lbs and am now a size 0. I'll never be a 0, and that's okay. I think I am just nervous because I have never talked about trying to lose weight either. So all my nerves are a little bundle right now in my tummy. To top it off, I am not a great flyer and this is Brynn's first plane trip and Mady's first in over a year, so I have some anxiety. Thankfully my mom is coming in to help me fly back with the girls. I have told everyone that I'd be fine doing it myself and I would be, but I am very relieved that my mom will be there to help. Steven has to hang around here for an exam, but will be there just in time for Brynn's 1st Birthday!!

Trying on my wedding dress.  I tried to get a good picture, but the angle was all weird.  And sorry for the pink bra, I am in need of a new strapless.