90lbs down!

Well today I finally got over a weight loss funk I was going through all last week. I yoyoed all last week going up and down a couple pounds, which was particularly frustrating because we started our second month of Insanity and I can tell you for a fact I am burning some major calories doing it. I thought month one was hard, and it is, but month 2 is crazy insane hard. We were so happy to have a day off yesterday. Anyways I stepped on the scale this morning and managed to get over the half pound I couldn't, so now I am down 90lbs!

I am excited to be feeling so good and happy with how far I have come. I also have to say I am proud of myself for coming this far without using any crazy weight loss diets or pills. I want to remind everyone I have done this all by eating healthy, watching my calorie intake, and working out. I have never skipped a meal. I have never ate just lettuce and carrots (or something crazy like that). I eat the foods I enjoy, even sweets and chocolate, just in moderation. It took a lot to teach myself to eat just a little. Yes it is hard to have just 1 cookie sometimes, and yes sometimes I eat more than I should. But that happens, that's life. I balance out the bad with good. I eat a lot more vegetables now, roasted veggies is one of my favorite things ever.

So now I push forward and even though I may not exactly want to work out tonight, I will, because I know I feel better when I do. I feel strong and healthy and like I can do it. Okay in the middle I am nearly crying at points because I don't think I can do anymore. But I do. I push myself to do more than I think I can. I know it is the holiday season and I actually got my beginning of inspiration to start this at the beginning of the holiday season last year. I don't think I have told anyone about this, but now I am thinking about it, so I will. Last year in December I had my follow up appointment after having Brynn (yes it was late, I cancelled, the doctor cancelled, it ended up being a few weeks late), anyways the appointment was with a midwife I had never seen before, but now if I was pregnant (which I am not) I would definitely go see her. She was a bigger woman, and had the same build as me. Just a few years older than me, and had a little boy a bit older than Mady. Yes we chatted. She asked me about my weight and at that point I weighed less than I did before I had Mady, which she was happy about, but she looked at me and she said that she had recently lost 50lbs and was working on losing more. She said she could lecture me all day about the health risks and why I should do it, but the reality is that I will finally do it when I am ready. I will take the steps to change my life when I am ready to do it. It always stuck with me. Two months later I began to change my lifestyle. And I thank her for saying that to me. She even said don't do it for New Years. Do it when you are ready, not because it is the beginning of a year and you want to make a resolution. I will likely not see her again, and she will never know if I actually began to get healthy. But her words and her honesty with me really stuck and I appreciate that.

So make the change for you and if you feel like now is the time to make a change in your life, whether it is healthy eating, getting out of a bad situation, or getting into a good one, do it when you are ready. You will know when it is time, even if it is in the middle of the holiday season when it may seem inconvenient, make the changes you need to when you are ready.